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Before I begin my testimony I feel it is
important to give you some information on my childhood, so you will be
better able to understand some of the decisions I made in my life, however
stupid they may have been. But every decision I have made during my
lifetime good or bad is what has brought me to where I am now and I am
very thankful for the mountains and the valleys.
When I was born my mother was only fifteen years
old and now years later and after I went through the process of forgiving
her and working through many things, I am now able to look at her life
through her eyes to try to better understand how she must have felt.
Someone gave me this advice when I was really struggling with all of this,
I was told that maybe I could forgive easier if I try to see her life
through her eyes and not the eyes of a hurt child, you know what, it
worked, I can understand her more clearly now. She was not mature enough
to take care of herself much less a baby. So she would send me here and
there to whomever would willing to take me at that particular time, most
of the time it was my grandmother, several times throughout my life she
would decide that she wanted me back and she would come and uproot me
again. I never really knew any stability in my life and I always felt as
if no one really loved me or wanted me.
Then at the age of nine she came and got me and
took me away from my grandmother which, really at this point of my life,
was the only mother I had ever known and I was very attached to her.
Anyway, my mother came and took me to Illinois where she lived, by this
time she had remarried and she had two more children by her new husband.
He hated me and the only reason I could figure out was simply that I was
not his child. Now this was not my fault, although I did blame myself for
many years. He started just physically abusing me, but at the age of nine
that changed, he raped me and this abuse went on until I was thirteen and
I finally told my mother, she didn’t believe me, actually no one
believed me. Finally I just let it drop and I buried all of those feelings
of anger and hate for years, that has now all been dealt with and forgiven
and now it is all under the precious blood of Jesus, Praise God. I told my
mother that I wanted to go back to Memphis to live with my grandmother and
she consented just because she felt I was causing so much trouble and she
did not want to be bothered.
Now my grandmother was now also remarried and I
resented him for taking her away from me too. You must remember I was only
a child and I felt like she was all I had and now I had lost her too. I
was very hateful to him and caused so many problems, he was very kind and
loving to me but I just could not accept what he was offering to me. My
grandmother finally after a long struggle went to the courts and told the
judge that I was out of control and they just could not handle me any
longer, so they removed me and placed me in a foster home, the home I went
to was wonderful, but at that time I could not see things clearly, all I
could see was that the only person who should love me had now turned her
back on me as well, I just wanted my grandmother so, I ran away. The
courts then really called my bluff, so as a ward of the State of Tennessee
I was placed in a Catholic all girls reform school for three and a half
years. Now as I look back, I can honestly say it was one of th!
e best things that ever happened to me. But at that
time all I could see was that I was totally alone, unloved and unwanted in
this great big world.

Now I will jump ahead some.
In 1987 I lost my
three children to their father and I totally lost it. I turned heavily to
alcohol and eventually that turned into crack and cocaine. By this time I
had lost everything including my dignity as I had turned to prostitution
to support my drug habit. I was arrested several times on various charges,
but I was never convicted and I never served any time, I know that God was
taking care of me even back them in my sin, He saw what I would be one day
in Him. I give GOD all the PRAISE, HONOR AND GLORY for all that I am today
and all that I will be.
The drugs and my roaming had taken me to many
places but on December 20, 1990 I came across a man that told me about
Jesus and how He could deliver me and make my life an example to others. I
had not eaten in a couple of days and he asked me if I was hungry, so he
took me to a restaurant and bought me something to eat. The entire time he
shared about Jesus Christ with me. He told me Christ could and would set
me free if I was willing, and how He (Jesus), would give me a new life
without all the pain and turmoil I was living in. Of course being a
Christian does not eliminate us from pain, trials and tribulation but with
Christ in our hearts He will give us the strength to overcome and
withstand even in the worst times. I began sharing my life story with this
man and he still said Jesus is the answer, and boy was he right. Right
there I gave my heart to the Lord and I decided to live for Him and serve
Him for the rest of my life.
I had been singing for many years and I had
destroyed my voice through drug abuse, I just abused the gifts that God
had given me. So I prayed and told the Lord that if He would heal and
restore my voice I would use this gift for His glory for the rest of my
life. Now, God has done exceedingly and abundantly above all that I could
ask or think. The songs that I sing and others that I have written they
are all His I am only an instrument holding the pen. It does not matter
where you are, Christ will come to you and meet you if, you are willing to
let your life go and let Him be God of and in your life.
I have had so many miracles in my Christian life
as I am a walking miracle myself. One of these miracles really stands out
to me and I would like to share this with you as well. About four or five
years ago I was diagnosed with an incurable bowel condition, the doctors
were not real sure what it was exactly, but they had come to the
conclusion that with ulcers all through my body and many in my bowel
system, they said they wanted to do surgery and remove some of the bowel.
My reply was that I wanted to get prayer for this and that I believed that
God was going to heal me and I will not need the surgery at all. They went
ahead and scheduled me for another scope the following week, just a few
days after Christmas. Then on Christmas Eve I placed a long distance call
to a minister friend of mine and asked him to pray for me, he said no
problem but he would need to call me back in a few minutes. While waiting
for him to call back I got about ten bibles and placed them opened on the
floor in a circle and one opened in the middle of the circle. When he
called me back I knelt on the bible in the middle and said, “pray”.
When he prayed for me the fire of God hit me and went through me, I had
such a peace come over me. I went over to my bed and fell asleep (now Adam
was put into a deep sleep in Genesis when God removed the rib to create
woman) God did the same for me as I lay there sleeping He performed
surgery on me to heal my body. I slept for seventeen hours and when I woke
the bleeding had stopped and so had the pain, I knew without a doubt that
I was healed by the precious hand of the Master. I was on about $400.00
worth of medicine a month and I went into the kitchen and threw it all in
the trash. I did go back for the scope when I was scheduled and the
doctors were amazed there were no ulcers anywhere and I just praised God
for His healing power.
I am now an ordained minister and I am married
to a wonderful man who is also a minister. We know God has put us together
for a ministry and we are enjoying serving the Lord together. I am now a
southern gospel singer\songwriter. The Lord has blessed me and I will
continue on this road He has placed me on for my desire is only to serve
Him. I will travel anywhere I am invited to give my testimony or to sing
or both. God is wonderful and it is to His glory that I am writing this,
if one soul is reached in any way then this is worth everything.
Again I cannot stress enough that this is for
the glory of God that I am here and that my life is what it is today, for
without Christ we are nothing, but through Him we are joint heirs with
Him. He is our Deliverer, Savior, Helper, and Healer and any problem we
may have is never to great for Him to help us, we just have to take it to
Him and leave it at His feet and in His care. I thank God for His power is
still healing, still saving and still delivering. He is good all the time.
I have made my mistakes but His grace is sufficient. God loves us and if
we truly repent and confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive
us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
If we can help anyone out there, please contact
us at the information provided below and we will do our best to help in
any way we can. If you have questions about loved ones who may be on drugs
or other addictions we will try to answer your questions, if we do not
know we will do our best to find the answer for you. If you have loved
ones that you need prayer for we will gladly join you in agreeing for that
person for the Kingdom. Please always remember we are human and we will
make mistakes but just confess to God those mistakes and get them under
the blood of Jesus as soon as possible, God still loves us and He will
help us in all of our situations.
GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU
ALL. I GIVE FULL PERMISSION TO ANYONE WHO CAN USE THIS TESTIMONY TO COPY
IT AND GIVE IT OUT OR TO SHARE IT PUBLICALLY, BUT PLEASE GIVE ALL
THE GLORY AND PRAISE TO GOD.
THANK-YOU.
WE ARE YOUR
BROTHER AND SISTER IN CHRIST JESUS.
Jerry
& Shelia Holcomb
Feel free to email us at:
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